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Wednesday, May 22nd, 2019
6:02 pm - OFC
And, on Audrey's very last day of a seven-week stint of nothing but shifts in the hottest part of the pharmacy . . . .



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Monday, May 20th, 2019
12:08 am - Not dead yet
Looks like we got a new Fujoshi Life! We had one last week, too. Also a Sauce. Sorry I fell behind on the journal.

We've been having horrific heat problems at work for about six weeks now. I have been stuck in the compounding area in the very back where the heat is the highest. It is never, and I mean NEVER, lower than 80 degrees back there and can get very close to 90 in certain areas under certain conditions. I sweat through my outfit almost every day. One of the pharmacists turns into Timmy Tourettes when he has to work back there. The manager once had to cover for a pharmacist back there who went home sick, got cranky in the heat and tried to take it out on me.

I've been stuck on that same fucking shift for nearly all six weeks of the broken HVAC with no end in sight. When they scheduled me for the intensive training schedule, they didn't figure on the air conditioner fritzing out, but it hasn't changed anything. I get home from my shift, chug a giant glass of water, die, revive after dark and start foraging like a rat. Usually go to bed less than four hours before I have to get up at 5:45 to start the coffee. I'm not completely sure if I'm awake or asleep most of the time.

 . . . . I did actually write this and it's not just in my head, right? ;-)

Happy Monday, everybody!

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Sunday, May 5th, 2019
11:58 pm - Well, shiz, I guess it's a two-parter!
Emi brings WWE-style street justice over at Fujoshi Life!

Be as holier-than-thou as you want, but if you're preaching at me during porn time, I gotta warn you of diminishing returns!

Also Translator-Chan's note there is 100% accurate. That happened. I was surprised. I mean, I wasn't, but I was.

Not much else in life going on. Pretty okay day, in spite of the HVAC being out at work and the 90-degree heat melting everyone's brain.

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Thursday, May 2nd, 2019
11:51 am - Comic update!
I got 99 problems, but Sauce ain't one!

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Sunday, April 28th, 2019
11:48 pm - New comic, old comic, thinkin' out loud
New Fujoshi Life up today! Also a new Sauce went up last Friday, I forgot to post about it, but it's still there!

While everyone else is all caught up in the excitement over Endgame, the latest movie I saw kind of slipped under the radar. Hell, I only found out about it before it was almost too late to see it in theaters, but I managed to grab ahold of that last scale on the end of the dragon's tail, and I'm glad I caught the ride.

The movie is Terry Gilliam's "The Man Who Killed Don Quixote."

This is an incredibly complex movie that I am in no shape to review impartially because, well, I'm a Gilliam fan. But whether you loved it, hated it or didn't care much either way, you have to acknowledge the sheer miracle that it even got made in the first place. This was a movie that spent a record 29 YEARS in Development Hell. His credits could have had a list of production babies born FROM production babies! I'm sure better movies were born and died in a third of that time, but it's a testament to the sheer persistance of Gilliam against the dark forces of Hollywood, fate and even himself at times.

The movie he ended up making is a very different animal from the original film he set out to make, and the movie itself very much reflects that. It's not just a movie about Don Quixote, it's a movie about the pursuit to make a movie about Don Quixote. It jumps around between realities and is pretty meta, which I think is why it didn't resonate with critics very well, and only slightly better with audiences. Anyway, if you see this movie, I think the best way to enjoy it is to think of it as less of a linear movie, and more of a metaphysical autobiography, or even just an allegory on the nature of art and creation. And I do urge you to see it if you can.

So why do I care so much about this one particular movie, that isn't even Gilliam's best? It's because of what it means. The man was lost at sea for 29 years, and his vessel basically ended up as Theseus' Ship, but he completed the voyage home. What he made was not what he set out to make, but he still made something of value. This is something that resonated with me, because of, well, pretty much the last 3-4 years. I accept now that I am not what I was before, maybe as a consequence of my experiences, maybe as a consequence of getting older, maybe due to other factors, maybe all of the above. I do not see art or storytelling or comics, or my world, or myself the same way. But if Gilliam showed me nothing else, it's that even if the deal gets yanked out from under you, irretrievably, REPEATEDLY, it is not impossible to forge a new deal. And that is the first piece of positive motivation that I have really gotten to stick in my mind, no matter how dark it gets in here.

I've been drawing now for three days in a row. Nothing special, notebook work. But it's the first time I've done that in a very, very long time. Not going to be like "I'm all better!" and shit. But it ain't a bad sign.

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Monday, April 22nd, 2019
10:02 pm - Oh yeah, I knew I was forgetting something . . .
New Fujoshi today. Think I did a pretty good job on this one!

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Thursday, April 18th, 2019
8:29 pm - Sawwwwwwwce
Back again for the very first time!

Sorry I have less to say about this one, I won't really have much until the new ones start coming up.

This has been what I would consider a crucible of a week. Passed the test, but feeling slightly singed. Hopefully next week runs slightly more smoothly - and for everyone else, too!

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Monday, April 15th, 2019
12:48 am - A little background on today's comic
So, I thought today's Fujoshi Life might benefit from some extra explanation.

Now, if you don't recognize those pairings, they're from the fandom of the now-ended "new" Voltron cartoon, considered to be one of the most polarized, acrimonious and straight-up RABID fandoms since, say, Steven Universe.

Back in the day, one of my favorite things to say about female fandom was that, while it was indeed passionate, it did not have the weird personal pride investment that male fandom did, such as in situations like the Xbox versus Playstation war. I could say that, at the end of the day, even if fangirls didn't have the same favorite fandoms / ships / perspectives, they could at least agree to coexist in peace. Even when people DID get shitty in their fandoms, I was more than content with the "vocal minority" or "few bad apples" explanations.

Then the predominantly-female Voltron fandom rolled through, and I didn't know WHAT to think.

I'm not even going to talk about the weird raging accusations of pedophilia (often directed from 20 year olds to 21 year olds, just for added insanity) OR the doxxing OR the contacting the workplaces of people who liked certain ships and trying to get them fired or even the relentless hounding of the show's creators over theoretically "problematic" elements.

I would like to talk to you about Karen Lance.

Karen Lance is a middle-aged realtor from Canton, Ohio. Her major use of the internet seems to be her Twitter, which she uses to update the Canton community about her business and local events. To my knowledge, she is not, nor has she ever been, an active member of Voltron fandom. It's entirely possible that she's never even seen the show. Before all hell broke loose, she probably didn't even know there WAS a new Voltron show.

So, what the hell happened?

Karen Lance had the unmitigated GALL, years before the show launched, to make her Twitter handle "klance." When the show's fandom picked up speed, the "smushname" of one of the most popular pairings, two guys named Keith and Lance, became "klance." My readers are a sharp bunch; I have no doubt that you already all know where this is going.

Once Klance fangirls found out that the handle was taken, Karen Lance suddenly found herself deluged with DMs that ranged from frantic to angry to actively threatening. Some of the fans called her an "old fat white bitch" who didn't deserve the handle and insisted that she give it to them, or else. More conciliatory, if delusional, fans promised her that "gay space babies will buy your most expensive house" if she would just give up the Twitter handle. Which, I may remind you, can really only go to one of the dozens of people who were actively clamoring for it. At one point, baffled by what was causing all this, Karen got the police involved. I imagine  that even when they finally got down to the root of this entire mess, it was no less baffling for everyone involved.

You don't believe me, do you? That's okay, I wouldn't believe me. The original thread I followed has been swallowed by the abyss, but this post on Quora (scroll down to J Solomon) mentions it and gives a pretty good synopsis.

Anyway, the Voltron show ended after a downward spiral at the end of seven seasons, the psychos have moved on to fresh hunting grounds, and my perception of fangirls as the more level-headed half of fandom is a pleasant but now shattered illusion.

At least Karen got to keep her Twitter handle. No need to trouble her with any of this, but feel free to hit her up if you're looking for a house in the northeastern Ohio area!

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Thursday, April 11th, 2019
9:39 pm - "New" Sauce.
By which I mean old Sauce, but we're getting to the new stuff as quick as time allows.

I don't think this Sauce knows what day it is!

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Monday, April 8th, 2019
12:37 am - Good to see the auto-uploader working properly at last.
Want proof? New Fujoshi Life!

I'm pretty sure that even without an explanation, you can get a rough handle on what "a/b/o" is about from the context. Let's just say, the lengths to which some of us go to explain/rationalize a fetish exceeds a NASA checklist.

What else is new? Not much. Art show is over, thank God, it was horrible.

What am I working on now? I got a teeny-tiny counted cross stitch kit. It's going to end up as a little keychain with daffodils in it. It's so tiny and cute. I pick at it while during workday breaks, and it makes me so happy to think about that it makes actual work time go a little faster. It's so small and simple, so personal and private. It's exactly what I want right now.

I imagine I'll come out of this state, in a bit. But right now, this is where I'm glad to be.

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Thursday, April 4th, 2019
12:02 am - This should take you back . . .
Today's Sauce! is an oldie, but a goodie!

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Monday, April 1st, 2019
9:37 am - If I could go back in time, I probably would slap myself on the back of the head at LEAST once.
Past Audrey screwed up the auto-updater and Present Audrey has had to clean up the mess as soon as she realized it. Here you go, new Fujoshi, just a little later than usual!

Am now going through all the other updates to make sure that this shit doesn't happen again. Also enjoying homemade whole-wheat pancakes with apple butter. Mmm, I love Saturdays. Especially when they're on Mondays! Working in medical with highly variable scheduling kind of messes with your sense of time. Hopefully I'll get more used to that as time goes on.

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Thursday, March 28th, 2019
5:45 am - I remembered this time!
Sauce is up!

OK time to go to job

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Monday, March 25th, 2019
8:41 pm - New comic!
Sorry I didn't post this morning, but new Fujoshi Life is up!

I think this one just counts as character-building.

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Thursday, March 21st, 2019
12:29 am - Saaaaaaaas!
Oh yeah, it's that time again.

'Fraid I'm not in the greatest mood tonight. In spite of my personal current stance against taking on any work that isn't my own idea and my own initiative at my own pace, I agreed to be in the blacklight art show and have to make a new painting for it. It looks like shit, but I don't even really care, I just hate the painting and kind of the show by extension. Maybe I'll just run last year's painting, I don't think anyone will remember it.

Here are my two pieces from last year's show:

That little one to the right was the cheapest piece in the entire show, at fifty dollars. No one bought it. No one bought anything from the gallery, I think. Except booze.

I gave the little one away to the one person who recognized its source. Still have St. Mortifer. He'll probably lose to cocktails again this year. I think either this year or last year will be my final year with the art show.

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Monday, March 18th, 2019
12:21 am - Art marches on!
Glad I stayed up, not only 'cause I could write the post for this update, but also so I could iron out an unnoticed problem with the auto-uploader.

The important thing is - New Fujoshi Life!

Incidentally, "Emi" has been having some of the same problems with writing that I think I've been having with comics, which makes me think that the part of it that isn't stress-induced might simply be a side effect from aging. Not saying it can't be combated, just interesting to think about where it comes from.

She was at one point both a prolific and, if I may be so ungenteel as to brag, celebrated fanfic author in her personal circles. I know I would certainly contribute ideas when I had them and she was quite generous at taking up the challenges - I think the worst thing we ever made was taking characters from a "shounen" fighting anime and making them all TSA agents at the Miami International Airport. It was wonderful, it was horrible. To quote Joel McHale, "it was, for lack of a better word, art."

She hasn't written in a while, at least not to my knowledge, and I wouldn't want to put undue pressure on her at this time if she's grappling with any problems similar to mine. That being said, I would be beyond thrilled if she started writing again, and would look forward to reading it, even if I didn't know the fandom.

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Friday, March 15th, 2019
12:44 pm - God damn me
Well, I forgot to post about it yesterday, but Sauce updated again!

The problem with preloading months of comics in advance is that, while no comic UPDATE is ever missed, once I no longer have to stop thinking about it in real time, it's harder to remember to post on update days.

But hey, as long as the steak platter arrives at your table, are you REALLY going to complain that the piece of parsley on the side is missing? ;)

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Monday, March 11th, 2019
12:12 am - Getting better at remembering!

New Fujoshi!

This one takes me back to my college days. I didn't, and don't, normally draw "blue, but my lone exceptions were gifts for friends and at the informal event I would organize with my friends, Drunk Drawing Sunday. DDS did not ALWAYS degenerate into porn, but after we'd cracked through a dozen cans of Four Loko (back when the original recipe was still legal) and someone started beginning her sentences with "I dare you," wellll . . . . .

 . . . . as I've said before: I usually cannot turn down a challenge, and sometimes that is a problem for me. :)

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Thursday, March 7th, 2019
1:07 am - The return of the nightmare continues!
Moar Sauce!

Also, it suddenly just occurred to me that this is probably the most active I've been on "social media" since, well, the end of Chat, I think. I'm still not used to it, but trying to get back into the swing of things.

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Monday, March 4th, 2019
4:37 pm - I need to, like, set an alarm or something
Went to bed last night before the new Fujoshi went up, completely forgot to post about it in the morning.

Any fans out there feeling old yet? ;)

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