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Monday, October 22nd, 2018
10:04 pm - My tiny, tiny world
Hey, all.

I've been pretty quiet lately. Sorry about that, but I can confidently assert that it's not because of anything anybody did. I know that at least part of it can be chalked up to trying to hit the ground running with my new job, but it's not just that either.

I've been sort of entering this state of mind where my desire is to contract my world down to its narrowest possible borders. Simplify everything, remove excess factors. I now work three blocks from my house. Most things I need are within a fifteen minute walk to a five minute drive - grocery store, drug store, dry cleaner, a park where I can help out on weekends, several restaurants of varying cuisine and quality - hell, even the gym I joined. I got that last one to waive the activation fee by helping out the owner after he actually CLICKED on one of those "your computer is infested with malware!" popups that then immediately infests your computer with malware. He asked "Should I just call the phone number in the popup screen?" and I was like "WE DO NOT NEGOTIATE WITH TERRORISTS."

Point is, I'm just sort of retracting from everything right now, and to some degree, yes, this also includes the internet. I was never exactly a social media butterfly to start with, but now somehow it's even less so. I couldn't say for sure whether or not it's the healthiest thing, but it does feel right for the moment. I'm also trying to get the desire to draw and write back off the ground. It's a lot better, but it's still pretty far from where it started and I'd need to get to a better place before I can start another series. I'd like to get there soon. After all, Sarah & Abra won't last forever . . . . oops, spoilers. ;)

In any case, if you don't hear any big news from me, it just means I'm walking to and from my job, making little meals and mugs of tea, sneaking in workouts whenever I can trick myself and trying to simultaneously expand my definitions of happiness and my perception of peace.

And yeah, I'm still posting comics.

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Tuesday, October 2nd, 2018
12:13 am - Based on an actual conversation
Eh, it's still a better idea than graduate school!

In other news, I'm going to Big Sur next week (which is finally accessible by road again!) next week to clear my head before I start my new job. There won't be a journal entry, but comic service will continue as usual.

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Tuesday, September 25th, 2018
12:17 am - Back on schedule!
Well, I may have ballsed up the timing for the Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur comics, but with the Sukkot comic, we're back on track! (You may have to refresh the window, though, it's being a tad balky tonight.)

Been catching up with the works of Kris Straub lately. Never cared too much for his general comic works, but always had a soft spot for his spooky stuff. Eventually, he combined the spooky stuff with a new comic into something new called Broodhollow. The more you know about his spooky stuff (particularly if you've got his book), the more you'll recognize in the comic. And hell, you should see what he's up to now!

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Tuesday, September 18th, 2018
12:23 am - Sorry for missing my journal last week
At least I'm finally back. All illness is pretty much gone. And hey, a new comic! Thank god for Sarah's natural cartoon ability to consistently absorb moderate-to-high level damage. :)

Well, I've finally been able to start producing some new stuff. I don't know if it's postable, but it might grow into something that can run after Sarah & Abra is done. We'll see.

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Wednesday, September 5th, 2018
12:26 pm - Thank god for that autoloader
Because my recent illness just FLOORED me. My life was never in danger at any time, but 2 + 2 has been equalling "bees" for several days, so I was pretty useless for tasks that required any part of my brain other than the stem.

The good news is, I think that hundred-degree fever burned out the part of my mind responsible for the lack of motivation and inability to connect to a sense of purpose. I won't be sure if it really worked until after I'm at 100%, but it does, I'll tell you what the fix was.

Also I think I read the lunar calendar wrong and ran the high holidays strips a little early but screw it, I don't think even Jews are going to be bothered by it.

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Tuesday, August 28th, 2018
12:28 am - First night testing the auto-loader
And it works! Hurray!

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Monday, August 20th, 2018
10:00 pm - New comeek
I preloaded this one because I am going to bed early but this link should be active at midnight good lord I am druuuuuuunk

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Tuesday, August 14th, 2018
12:57 am - Bringing it on home!
Enjoy a less-than-grand, but still pleasurable, finale. :)

Did a little free drawing tonight. I had fun. Hey, it's a start!

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Tuesday, August 7th, 2018
1:08 am - On time for a change!

Now if I can just keep this up for the next six months, I'm gold!

Not sure what I'm gonna do after that, but I'll try to think of something.

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Wednesday, August 1st, 2018
12:04 am - I fucked up again.
Here ya go, catchup from Monday.

Well, at least one thing went right this week.

 . . . I got a job! :D

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Tuesday, July 24th, 2018
9:47 am - Forgot last night, so doing it this morning!
Here's the link!

Job hunt is starting to finally bear some fruit, so feeling less stressed about all this.

The sun is shining, the birds are singing and I've reached full antidepressant saturation levels in the bloodstream - it's gonna be a good day. ;)

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Tuesday, July 17th, 2018
12:00 am - Let's get into the meat of this thing
Onward into the storyline!

Also, if anyone gets a chance, stop over and give some love to acelightning. I'm not saying that you've had a bad month - if you say you have, I believe you - but I'm betting she's got you beat!

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Tuesday, July 10th, 2018
12:04 am - Up and running!
Comic's up, I remembered! Also, there may be a new job in the offing. I might even end up working graveyard shift. Objectively, that's something most people wouldn't like. But somehow, I have this weird feeling that it might end up being the total reset that my brain requires to get me back on track. That's probably just wishful thinking, though. Still, it beats hopeless thinking for a change!

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Tuesday, July 3rd, 2018
7:09 am - Technically not late, just got drunk and chose to post in the morning.
Soup's on.

Job hunt's not going so great. Thinking of abandoning all career-minded pursuits and just trying to get a job at the roadside flower stand that's apparently hiring.

It might not be the worst job I ever had.

I like flowers.

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Tuesday, June 26th, 2018
4:47 pm - Late again.
Nice to know that some things never change! Here you go. It's the start of a storyline, though it doesn't look it yet. Shhh, don't tell anybody!

I honestly did forget this week. Most of my mind has been occupied with job hunting. I've sent out many applications. I don't expect anyone to get back to me. Frankly, it'd be a small miracle if a human even saw it before it got algorithmically sorted into the "circular file."

Hope everyone else is having a nice week.

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Monday, June 18th, 2018
11:04 pm - Updated on time. May as well do something right.
Here ya go. Link goes live in an hour.

I have no idea who I am anymore.

Not only have I not been making comics, or really any art in general of note, but I feel so differently about it now - it doesn't quite hold the same meaning for me. I figured I might instead start channelling the focus into writing, but so far, no dice. When I try new stuff, like swing-dance classes or diamond painting kits, it's nice, I enjoy it, and I wouldn't care if I never did it again in my life. I have no major life aspirations. I have no goals to speak of, aside from the obvious basics of survival.

I feel like I lack definition as a person now, I lack structure. It's like I'm being hollowed out.

I'm not saying it was caused by losing my job last week, nor was it the CAUSE of my job loss, but I'd say in both cases, it didn't help.

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Tuesday, June 12th, 2018
11:34 pm - I wonder what epipelagic ocean fish think is happening when it rains?
Sorry for the delay. Monday's events kind of threw me off my gait, but I've got the comic up now. Here is is!

Oh, and that top line is just what I was thinking about when I remembered to post the Livejournal update.

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Tuesday, June 5th, 2018
12:48 am - Oh boy, are you in for a treat this week.
I'm honestly shocked the paper let me do this one.

In "general life improvements" news, I finally made something new. See, I've been doing this thing at work where, whenever I have a few free minutes, I make these little pictures for people on Post-Its, which feature their name and an animal of their choice. Basically I drew one for one person on a lark and it kind of snowballed from there.One coworker requested that I draw him a Maltese dog. I looked up a model dog on Google Image Search and knocked a decent little scrawl out in about ten minutes.

He got surprisingly emotional about it - I hadn't realized that he'd recently lost his beloved pet Maltese and that the dog I'd chosen for my model looked pretty close to his former pet - and declared he was going to get it done as a tattoo. I was horrified at the idea that something I'd tossed off in ten minutes on a Post-It was going to become a permanent part of someone's skin, so I asked him to let me make him a better version on a nice piece of paper. This one took me about forty minutes, and turned out pretty well. He thanked me effusively for it.

So, it seems like whenever I am able to make something, I seem to gravitate towards projects that are very small, but with an outsized, if localized, impact. I'm not sure this suggests any particular course of action for me, but it's definitely something to think about.

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Tuesday, May 29th, 2018
12:30 am - This one's a two-parter.
So, here's the second part!

Not much to report this week. Managing? Managing sounds like a good way to describe it. Sent out a few job apps. Cleaned the bejesus out of my apartment. So, stuff's getting done. No news is good news, right? :-)

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Tuesday, May 22nd, 2018
12:51 am - Don't worry, not dead yet!
Hey. Sorry I haven't posted in a bit. Haven't had a lot to say. Still figuring my shit out. You know the saying, "you can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into"? I feel like there should be an attendant saying of "you can't medicate someone out of something they reasoned themselves into." Pretty sure the pills aren't helping. They ain't hurtin', but they ain't helpin'. Who knows, maybe the psych will want to try something else. Dude is like Santa Claus with a prescription pad.

Not much else going on - I was in another blacklight art show recently. It took me three months to make the paintings and was like hell to do it - which is rather unlike me in both temperament and speed. At least they got done in time. Just glad the show's over. No one bought my paintings, but then, nobody bought ANYTHING - they all just took pictures of the art and spent the money on drinks - so I'm not really offended. I'll figure out how to get the pictures I took up on the LJ tomorrow.

Sorry again for the delay. I truly didn't mean to worry anybody.

Oh, and comic's up.

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