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Monday, September 16th, 2019
11:42 pm - I thought I would be done by now!
Fifteen minutes to the end of Monday and it still ain't ready. >_<

One more day or two. God dammit, Audrey.

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Thursday, September 12th, 2019
8:42 am - Sauce is still tickin' along
Like I said!

Also, more stuff is going to kick into gear behind the scenes. I think I'll have more news on Monday.

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Thursday, September 5th, 2019
8:29 am - Still chuggin'
New Sauce!

Also, I've finished my little set of minis. I'm going to scan those in and clean them up this week. I think I'm going to post them to this journal. It might be the thing that gets me back in the habit of keeping up with this thing. :)

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Thursday, August 22nd, 2019
9:58 am - Double-wide!
This should be a nice treat to carry you into the end of the week!

Some of these new Sauces are double-pagers. A few are triples! There will be a break between triples and the regular schedule, but doubles are free, so have fun.

Still working in the minis, will throw them onto the site or the LJ when they’re all done. Maybe it can be kind of a “back to school” thing. ;-)

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Thursday, August 15th, 2019
12:48 am - SAUCE IS BACK Y'ALL
I finally, finally got myself to clean up and load the previously unpublished Sauce comics and from here on out, we are breaking new ground!

Soo yeah . . . . no new projects yet. It's not that I don't have ideas - there are a lot of ideas. It's more the lack of motivation, a lack of a reason to turn my imaginative postulata into physical works. No, don't worry, that's not the lead-in to a horribly run Kickstarter, it's just my own little existential quandary I've been grappling with for going on close to four years now.

That being said, when I do manage to force / trick  / cajole myself into drawing, it's emerged at least partially in the form of four mini-comics called "My 13-Year-Old Self's Dictionary." Described by test readers so far as "kind of funny, but also kind of really depressing." Would anyone be interested in a little sugar-dusted pathos?

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Monday, August 5th, 2019
8:52 pm - The end of yet another road.
Sauce is still going, but I'm afraid it's time to say a fond goodbye to our friendly neighborhood Fujoshi.

Subcultures change, relationships change, and we ourselves change, too, but our memories are a trove of shining jewels that we may treasure the rest of our days.

No news on new comics. I'll let you know when I know more myself.

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Monday, July 29th, 2019
10:02 pm - Last one to terminus
Well . . . . that happened.

Thankfully, neither my homegirl nor I left that event minus a pair of underwear or plus an embarrassing rash. I'm not sure the same can be said for the other girls we shared the suite with!

Incidentally, the next one is the last one. But at least Sauce will still be running, it's got a ways to go!

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Monday, July 22nd, 2019
1:52 pm - Looks like Sauce is back up and running

Also, we've got new Fujoshi - more horrors of the con await. I think I may have mentioned this before, but it's funny how no matter how enjoyable a yaoi comic is, it becomes just horrifying when converted to anime. I used to speculate that it was because these comics were created entirely by women, but most animators were men, so something in the aesthetic's appeal got "lost in translation." Then again, there are a lot more women in animation now and this shit still often ends up just a few degrees short of eldritch, so I'm not sure what the true explanation actually is.

Also, if you want to out the hidden pedophile in your life, just ask "Does anyone know what Boku No Pico is?" ;-)

(For the love of fuck, please don't look up that anime, but if you're able to safely get to its Wikipedia talk page, you will discover an absolute goldmine of insanity and pedantry that will make you laugh until it makes you cry!)

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Tuesday, July 16th, 2019
9:46 am - bweeeeeee
The Fujoshi are still rolling along at the convention. Things have gotten a little fucked up.

In honor of this strip, I'd like to present another Fangirl Quote of the Week from the yaoi doujinshi comment section:

"OMG (character name) what is WRONG with you?! He's TWELVE! YOU fucking SLEPT with a TWELVE Y/O OMG! Still ship it tho"


Lately my life has been about burning through craft kits. I've finished a diamond painting and am almost done with another, which I'm hoping to finish soon so I can make a new Paper Nano papercraft diorama before trying out my new artificial flowers kit.

I haven't been drawing much. Oddly, there are just as many comic ideas as ever, and even some light scripting and a storyboard or two floating around but nothing is actually happening in terms of production.

I don't know how I feel.

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Monday, July 8th, 2019
11:07 pm - Well, new week, new Fujoshi up
The convention fun continues!

Not much else is new. I still haven't fixed Sauce, I'll have the next one up Friday. Not doing much else other than little craft projects and dropping emotional cinder blocks on my stabler friends via text. Hey, at least they know I'm thinkin' about 'em!

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Thursday, July 4th, 2019
9:17 pm - Some news!
Happy Fourth of July! It's still the Fourth over here for three more hours, so I can still say it! Yay!

The Sauce upload fucked up! I will try to fix that and should have something for you tomorrow!

Also, on a personal note, I'm kind of annoyed by something that probably shouldn't make a difference, but it still bugs me. At the hospital, we have a front desk where the assistance staff decorate it for all the major national/cultural holidays - hearts for Valentine's Day, eggs and stuffed bunnies for Easter, that kind of thing. Anyway, for Pride Month they had everything all done up for two weeks with rainbow and trans flags and banners and posters and stuff. That's fine, it's Pride Month, that makes sense. But yesterday was the day before the Fourth of July, and there was nothing. It's not that I don't think the gay, trans, etc. people shouldn't have their representation, they totally should. But it's kind of shitty to then ignore Independence Day. Not everyone at the hospital is gay or trans, but literally every one of both our clients and our employees is American. I get that this is San Francisco (we hate America even worse than ISIS, all soldiers eat babies for fun, blah blah blah) but c'mon, guys . . . . would a token effort of a couple of miniature American flags or a few red-and-blue glitter stars hurt that much?

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Monday, June 24th, 2019
9:55 am - Good times
In honor of today's Fujoshi Life, I give you the Fangirl Quote of the Day, culled specially from the comments section of my local doujinshi upload repository:


In unrelated news, my GOD do I love evening shifts that start in the late afternoon. Cue Audrey nursing a cup of coffee in pajamas with some lo-fi chillhop for like two hours <3

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Friday, June 21st, 2019
1:05 pm - Just checkin' in.
Most recent update was over at Sauce. It's an oldie, but a goodie.

So what's new over here? Not much. Work is still work. I have a weekend coming up, so that'll be nice. I've been trying to make stuff but still fighting unmotivation. I've been doodling out a couple of cutesy, pathos-riddled minicomics just as an exercise. Might post those. We'll see when they're done. I'm also working on a short story - really just exploring a theme - inspired by a friend of mine who's working on some kind of epic vampire-themed action-mystery comic. I'll link to her project when it comes online, but it's got a long way to go!

Life isn't much of anything right now, but at least it is life, at least for the moment.

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Monday, June 10th, 2019
11:40 pm - Got the new one up
This week's Fujoshi kind of gets into some weird territory. And it ain't gonna stop next week. I completely understand anyone who doesn't completely understand this.

And with a new 2200+ acre fire up north only 20% under containment and our first air quality warning of the summer, we here in California have officially opened for Fire Season! WOO!

Also our new air conditioning worked for about a week and now it's broken again and also the entire hospital's AC is also broken, which makes me think it actually might have something to do with the power grid instead of the machinery, but all I know is that it is getting really hot in there.

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Sunday, June 2nd, 2019
11:40 pm - Still alive
Fujoshi Life is still going with new comics

Sauce is chugging along, too.

Audrey . . . . is kind of missing part of her brain and her soul at the moment, but she's working on that. She's not being very communicative, alas, but please rest assured she is trying her best to recoup functionality. Her best is pretty mediocre at the moment, but hey, points for effort, right?

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Wednesday, May 22nd, 2019
6:02 pm - OFC
And, on Audrey's very last day of a seven-week stint of nothing but shifts in the hottest part of the pharmacy . . . .



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Monday, May 20th, 2019
12:08 am - Not dead yet
Looks like we got a new Fujoshi Life! We had one last week, too. Also a Sauce. Sorry I fell behind on the journal.

We've been having horrific heat problems at work for about six weeks now. I have been stuck in the compounding area in the very back where the heat is the highest. It is never, and I mean NEVER, lower than 80 degrees back there and can get very close to 90 in certain areas under certain conditions. I sweat through my outfit almost every day. One of the pharmacists turns into Timmy Tourettes when he has to work back there. The manager once had to cover for a pharmacist back there who went home sick, got cranky in the heat and tried to take it out on me.

I've been stuck on that same fucking shift for nearly all six weeks of the broken HVAC with no end in sight. When they scheduled me for the intensive training schedule, they didn't figure on the air conditioner fritzing out, but it hasn't changed anything. I get home from my shift, chug a giant glass of water, die, revive after dark and start foraging like a rat. Usually go to bed less than four hours before I have to get up at 5:45 to start the coffee. I'm not completely sure if I'm awake or asleep most of the time.

 . . . . I did actually write this and it's not just in my head, right? ;-)

Happy Monday, everybody!

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Sunday, May 5th, 2019
11:58 pm - Well, shiz, I guess it's a two-parter!
Emi brings WWE-style street justice over at Fujoshi Life!

Be as holier-than-thou as you want, but if you're preaching at me during porn time, I gotta warn you of diminishing returns!

Also Translator-Chan's note there is 100% accurate. That happened. I was surprised. I mean, I wasn't, but I was.

Not much else in life going on. Pretty okay day, in spite of the HVAC being out at work and the 90-degree heat melting everyone's brain.

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Thursday, May 2nd, 2019
11:51 am - Comic update!
I got 99 problems, but Sauce ain't one!

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Sunday, April 28th, 2019
11:48 pm - New comic, old comic, thinkin' out loud
New Fujoshi Life up today! Also a new Sauce went up last Friday, I forgot to post about it, but it's still there!

While everyone else is all caught up in the excitement over Endgame, the latest movie I saw kind of slipped under the radar. Hell, I only found out about it before it was almost too late to see it in theaters, but I managed to grab ahold of that last scale on the end of the dragon's tail, and I'm glad I caught the ride.

The movie is Terry Gilliam's "The Man Who Killed Don Quixote."

This is an incredibly complex movie that I am in no shape to review impartially because, well, I'm a Gilliam fan. But whether you loved it, hated it or didn't care much either way, you have to acknowledge the sheer miracle that it even got made in the first place. This was a movie that spent a record 29 YEARS in Development Hell. His credits could have had a list of production babies born FROM production babies! I'm sure better movies were born and died in a third of that time, but it's a testament to the sheer persistance of Gilliam against the dark forces of Hollywood, fate and even himself at times.

The movie he ended up making is a very different animal from the original film he set out to make, and the movie itself very much reflects that. It's not just a movie about Don Quixote, it's a movie about the pursuit to make a movie about Don Quixote. It jumps around between realities and is pretty meta, which I think is why it didn't resonate with critics very well, and only slightly better with audiences. Anyway, if you see this movie, I think the best way to enjoy it is to think of it as less of a linear movie, and more of a metaphysical autobiography, or even just an allegory on the nature of art and creation. And I do urge you to see it if you can.

So why do I care so much about this one particular movie, that isn't even Gilliam's best? It's because of what it means. The man was lost at sea for 29 years, and his vessel basically ended up as Theseus' Ship, but he completed the voyage home. What he made was not what he set out to make, but he still made something of value. This is something that resonated with me, because of, well, pretty much the last 3-4 years. I accept now that I am not what I was before, maybe as a consequence of my experiences, maybe as a consequence of getting older, maybe due to other factors, maybe all of the above. I do not see art or storytelling or comics, or my world, or myself the same way. But if Gilliam showed me nothing else, it's that even if the deal gets yanked out from under you, irretrievably, REPEATEDLY, it is not impossible to forge a new deal. And that is the first piece of positive motivation that I have really gotten to stick in my mind, no matter how dark it gets in here.

I've been drawing now for three days in a row. Nothing special, notebook work. But it's the first time I've done that in a very, very long time. Not going to be like "I'm all better!" and shit. But it ain't a bad sign.

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